Working on a print copy

I’m hopefully going to have a print copy of “the end” available by next week sometime (depending on timing) for anyone that wants one.  If you’ve been holding out because you don’t have an e-reader then I’ll have something for you shortly.


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My new blog

This is a new project I am working on (on top of my other novel).  It is a blog about melding mind and body to build a better you.  It will have book reviews, motivational posts, workouts and what ever is of interest to me at the time.  Feel free to check it out and subscribe, I will still be posting here occasionally but that will be my main focus for blog purposes

Mind Body Mash




What I’ve been reading lately

So I’ve just finished reading The Descent and I have to say that I enjoyed it immensely.  It was fast paced, unique and just a nice fund and exciting read.  I don’t really have much to say against it other than that I wish it was longer, I felt the ending was a little rushed and that the concept of the novel could have been fleshed out even further.  It reminded me of The Passage in the style and themes explored.  I give it a solid recommendation, especially if you need a fun book to read on vacation as the weather gets nicer.

I am now reading Crazy Like Us: The Globalization of the American Psyche because I like to mix a little non-fiction in every once and a while.  I am about half way through and so far it is interesting.  I feel that the central idea (that america has exported mental illness) to be something worth exploring.  It is also interesting to see how other cultures viewed mental illness before and after they were introduced to the western medical definitions, and how sufferers usually fare worse in the western medical view.

Being someone who has struggled with things like depression, anxiety and panic (as I feel we all do form time to time) I am drawn to books about mental illness and how it is treated.  Mostly to how it is over treated and how treatment revolves around medication when time, talk and understanding have been shown to be more effective in long term recovery.  For anyone interested in the over prescribing and medicating of normal human reactions coded as mental illness I recommend Anatomy of an Epidemic: Magic Bullets, Psychiatric Drugs, and the Astonishing Rise of Mental Illness in America.  This was a book that brought to light a lot of the problems with mental illness and how it is treated in the western world.

Until next time,


Coping With Failure

So I mentioned in my last post that I would be dealing with disappointment this week.  That happened today, I have to learn not to hope for things, I have to learn to stop hoping.  Today I was crushed, a year and a half of hoping, waiting and struggle all done.  I can only think that if I hadn’t allowed myself to hope it would be easier to deal with.

It’s just another failure to add to that ever expanding list of failures.  I will try again, a different path this time and a different route to failure and then I’ll try again after that and so on until I die.  My life is punctuated by failure after failure, but I guess that means I have lived a life where I constantly try.  I can think of no real successes in my life, so I have to have one coming to me soon, as long as I keep trying.

How to cope with failure: try again.

It just hurts, hurts so much.  I don’t know how much longer I can be beaten down before I accept my place in the dirt and get comfortable living there.  Life is a test of will, my will against the brutal unstoppable world.  I won’t break the world and I hope my will won’t be broken by it.  I will not allow myself to be broken, not again.  It just hurts, failing again.


Any way.  I am reading The Descent By Jeff Long.  I just started it, but I’m liking it so far (I like most books though, I’m a bad reviewer because I find the merit in everything I read).  Guess it’s fitting as a metaphor in a way, don’t know really, just want to keep track of what I’m reading in case anyone is interested.